I have realized that going back to school is going to be good for me in more ways than one. I know I have only been in class for a week, but in this week with the reading and assignments I have had to do, I have learned a lot about myself. I have decided these next 4 months is going to be a time of self-realization. In reading for my class tonight, there were several "activities" we had to complete. One of these was to list the ways we say unhealthy things to ourselves (the whispering self as my book says) or negative self talk. Here is my list:
1) I'm fat - but I am working on it
2) I'm not good at math (one had to relate to ourselves as a student and this is just true)
3) I attract losers. More like I am a loser magnet - it must be attached to my back. Thinking of having it surgically removed.
Then we also had to list 10 positive things about ourselves. I hate doing things like this because I always feel like I am being conceited. We were allowed to ask others, so I did, and there was also an email circulating today (I'll write about once I get all responses back) that helped me with some of my descriptions.
1) Good sense of humor
2) Caring
3) Positive
4) Friendly
5) Fun-Loving
6) Loyal
7) Trust worthy
8) Dependable
9) Helpful
10) Self - sacrificing (this is good but I have a tendency to make this bad by giving too much of myself....)
The most interesting thing I read about though was the physical reactions to stress. I was reading and start thinking....WOW, I don't remember the last time I had to go to the doctor......hmmmmmmm, maybe there is a connection between me being in and out of the doctor's office for 3 1/2 years and my relationship with He-Who-Shall-Not-Be-Named (no not Voldemort). Mom had always said she thought the constant stress I was under during that time was taking a toll on my physical health, but I never thought about it.....Until it wasn't there. I don't have someone making me feel constantly like I am worthless, the most unattractive person in the world, never will succeed at anything, stupid..the list goes on. I DON'T HAVE ANYONE IN MY LIFE WHO TREATS ME LIKE THIS ANYMORE!! Words cannot describe to you the revelation this has been, it has been a lengthy process, but definitely worth it.
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Were you dating my dad? Because that's what I call him on my blog? If you were dating my dad, you SO should have told me.
just kidding, i know who you mean.
Yes, it was your dad. You know I always liked him.....
It amazes me what we let stress do to our bodies and our lives. It also amazes me what horrible things we say to ourselves. I want to tell myself, "Quit it!"
hellllloooo?
NCTiger,
Interesting list, you sound like a good person. Hey thanks for your enthusiasm about helping out with our trip to Carolina. Seriously I would like to visit Asheville, I took this online test (findyourspot.com) that tells you the top places in the country you should live and Asheville is always at the top of my lists! Anyhow if you have any suggestions for me I added a post to my blog with more details of our trip. Thanks so much for the help, I can't wait to see the South in a few months!
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